There were many times where
I knew something was wrong and didn't know
exactly what it was. He would come to me and
say he was struggling with personal issues. And it came out at
one time that it was an addiction to pornography. We finally went to a counselor,
and everything was laid out on the table before me. Well, I didn't want to admit it. I didn't want to believe it. And I took it very personal,
thinking, "It's my fault. I'm not what you
want to look at. I don't weigh the right
amount, or whatever it is." The devastation and
the pain was at a place where we either had to fix
it or I had to walk away. I was reading in Moses
chapter 7 about Enoch: "And he beheld Satan; and he
had a great chain in his hand, and it veiled the whole face
of the earth with darkness; and he looked up and laughed,
and his angels rejoiced." When I read that
scripture, it hit me that the adversary
was laughing at me as much as he was laughing
at Troy and his addiction. I did not want to give
him that power anymore. I didn't want to give him that. I wanted to take my family back. Heavenly Father
blessed me and helped me to learn that
this wasn't about me. It was an addiction. This wasn't just his
battle, it was our battle. And I wasn't battling him; we
were battling an addiction. I felt the Spirit
say to me, "You know, I can heal you if you let me. If you let me, I can heal you." There's so much hope in
turning to our Heavenly Father and to our Savior. If we want our marriage and
our families to be eternal, then we need to go
to Heavenly Father. And maybe it's not going to
happen all at once, but little by little, if we do our part,
with God nothing is impossible. And to this day, 10, 12
years later, it's the same. I know I've been healed. I know I've been healed. The adversary's
victory would have been to destroy our family. Our victory, and Heavenly
Father's victory, was that we did it--that
we saved our family, that we allowed the
Savior to save our family.